His sister makes us the ever threesome. We do most everything together. This particular afternoon, however, he didn’t want to nap. And so while big sister was at school, the two of us headed over to Starbucks for some coffee and cake pops. I could see his excitement as soon as we walked into the door. He realized this afternoon was reserved for just the two of us. He couldn’t stop his smiles at me. I couldn’t stop smiling back.
I sat sipping my coffee, having “conversation” with my little man. I thought my heart might spill right over. And suddenly, I realized in that moment: I was his first date.
Countless other girls will spend their time sitting across the table from this guy. They will steal away his attention from me. I will no longer be his one and only…
To the one who will truly take my place someday, who will date him till she’s old and gray, this is what I would like to say to her:
I loved him first. I loved him in ways that can never be explained; depths the human language is incapable of articulating. I loved him more than life, and to hold his hand was like holding love itself.
This hand though, it was made for you. This hand which now wraps itself around my single finger. It turns me into pure putty, you know? But it was meant to hold yours.
He will love you more than anything, and this is the way things should be. However, no one will ever love him like I do. No one will ever brush the depths of this love. I look at him and my heart hurts, knowing someday he will no longer be mine. Knowing, even though it is good and right and beautiful, that you will take my place.
For now though, I am still his everything. This is our moment of coffee and cake pops. And so dear girl, I will take care of him for you. I will try my best to raise him to be the greatest husband one could ever want.
Someday you will look upon him and see a strong and loving man. Me? I will forever see that chubby little hand reaching my way, those big eyes which called me their world.
I was his first date. And this. . . well, this means everything to me.