Pierce had a seizure Sunday night. He fell face first into the bathtub when it began. My husband was reading a book to him, so concentrated on making the story exciting he did not notice him topple over. 5, 10 seconds in the water? Enough to bring terrors I had never known.
We watched in horror as his body seized, with no idea if he was choking on the water as well. We called 911. He began to turn blue, his breathe slowing to an almost complete stop. “He’s not breathing!” my husband cried out at one point. “God!” I screamed. No other words. I could not articulate any other word.
Finally, after what seemed a never ending time. After what seemed a death sentence, he let out a piercing cry, and I felt my heart return to its chest. He cried and screamed and cried and screamed, and I joined him tear for tear. I have never in all my life heard a more beautiful sound.
I had thought I was losing him. I cannot even begin to describe the emotions.
My heart is still raw.
The paramedics arrived and he was taken to the ER. A long night of tests and fevers, with many more painful tears–mine as well as his. And yet through every tear, there came a prayer of thanks. An overwhelming gratitude. I have never been more thankful for my little boy. My difficult, demanding, death defying little boy.
Never have I felt his soft touch with more love. Never have I listened to his sweet voice with more elation. Never has my heart been so utterly overwhelmed with this unexplainable gratitude.
I have always loved him more than my breath, but this time the breath was taken right out of me.
Thanksgiving. Thankful. This is me.
My babies are here. Nothing else matters.
He truly is a blessed little boy! not only for God’s protection but to have a mommy like you!
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Aw Rochelle, I cannot express how much I needed to hear this! Tears in my eyes. Thank you!!
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I can only imagine the terror you felt, but reading your post made my own heart seize. You’re a strong mommy! God is good!
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Thanks Christina! He most certainly is!!!! 😃
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Holding you in my thoughts – I cannot even fathom the terror you experienced. May you feel tremendous support and care as you support and care for your family.
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Thank you Alexis! The love and prayers from family and friends, and the amazing support from those here has really meant so much to me!!!
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My God. How resilient is our heart, that can be squeezed and throttled, undergo literal or metaphysical open heart surgery, and then scarred but still beating, still loving. I’m glad your son is okay xo
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Thanks Sara. I agree-the heart has more strength than we will ever realize. Little guy is doing great!!!
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Thank you for the reminder to not take a single moment for granted. Hugs Mama. My heart is with you.
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Thanks Olivia! I have been soaking in each and every moment this past week! Pierce is doing great and my heart feels it may burst from all the love I have for him. 🙂
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Hope all well at your end now.. Incidents like these reaffirms the presence of almighty!
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Yes!! Little guy is doing amazing!! A little tired still, but amazing! Thanks!
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Oh my!! That is so Scarry!!! I’m glad he is alright!!
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Thanks! Yes, he is doing great!!!
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Thats good, I couldn’t imagine going thru that. You are one tough mama!
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I’m not sure about tough, but grateful for sure! 🙂
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Sasha, you have such a way of reminding me what, exactly, I should be thankful for every day. I’m glad your sweet boy is ok. He is lucky to have such a loving, tender mama.
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Oh, thank you!! Your words mean a lot to me! Happy belated thanksgiving–we really have so much to be thankful for.
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Oh my goodness what a heartwrenching event. How is everyone now? I’m so very sorry, but so glad the outcome was OK. There are no words to describe how terrified you must have been. I hope you had a peaceful Thanksgiving, and thanks for sharing this difficult post. xoxorachel
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Rachel, Pierce is doing great!! It was a rough week of recovery but he is back to complete health now. I have never been so in love with my little guy! 🙂
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That was a scary moment to go through for any mother, but God is great and he protected your baby boy. I am so happy he is doing great and I hope you are too. Lots of hugs and prayers. You are a strong mommy. 🙂
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Thanks! I don’t always feel so strong but am definitely more thankful than ever before! God is so good and I find myself unable to stop expressing my thanks to Him, over and over and over again. 🙂
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Oh man, that is hard. We have a son with epilepsy, Caleb. He’s only had a few seizures, but they could never figure out what caused them, so it’s considered epilepsy. I hope you are able to find answers. Seizures are so scary, especially watching your own child deal with them. That is a pain I’m very familiar with.
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Sweet Caleb!! I cannot imagine the pains and difficulties this must bring to your heart. We are almost sure Pierce’s was a febrile seizure–no harm done and something he will grow out of. Many prayers for Caleb to also beat these awful things!
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Oh good! I know that’s a relief. Hope that’s the last one you have to deal with!
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This made my hold my daughter even tighter tonight. Sending positive thoughts and prayers to you and your family!
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Thanks Megan!! Pierce is doing great–all fevers gone. Still, I hold him extra tight each night. They are precious, and I am trying to not take a single moment for granted.
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My goodness. My stomach was turning even just READING this, so I cannot even begin to imagine how it must have felt to live it. I am so, so, so glad that he is okay!!!! I don’t think I’ve ever in my life experienced fear like the kind I feel now about losing my children. The price we pay for loving these little amazing beings as much as we do, I suppose?
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Alana, I know exactly what you mean. The passions run fierce when you suddenly become “mommy.” Each day a precious gift with our loves.
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I’m so glad to hear little man is okay!!
What a scary, raw reminder of how precious and what a gift our children are for however long we are blessed to be in their charge!!
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Yes, each moment to be embraced and cherished!! I watch him doing the simplest things and find my heart overflowing with love and gratitude for him.
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What a wonderful perspective to have!!
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I pray Pierce is ok. I can’t imagine anything scarier. Those little people truly do hold our hearts. I’m depressed even when they are sick! I know you are holding strong for him and your family. How blessed they are to have you!
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Aw, thanks! I definitely feel the blessed one! Pierce is doing great now, and I am holding him extra tight each day.
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Big hugs!!!
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Thanks! And Pierce is doing great! 🙂
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Hugs!! I can’t even imagine the terror! I hope it never happens again and am so glad for his health and safety!
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Thank you! I too hope it will be the last!!
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How horrifying Sasha. I actually could feel myself being scared as I read this. I know that terrifying feeling. I am happy that he is back home & in your arms.
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So am I!! I just can’t stop staring at his sweet face, taking in each and every detail about him! 🙂
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Oh my gosh how frightening! So glad he is okay!
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Thanks! Yes, worst moment of my life by far, and yet I have never been so grateful for my little guy!
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My prayers with you. How frightening. I couldn’t imagine. Thank goodness he is ok.
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Thank you! Yes, even now, two weeks later, I cannot keep myself from shuddering every time I see the place on the carpet where he was lying. I am holding him extra tight and long, soaking up each smile and touch. They really are treasure, never to be taken for granted.
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I have a son with health issues so I can really appreciate this post. I have included it in my list of favorites.
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My heart goes out to you dear momma! Prayers for strength for your precious family.
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Thank you Sasha! So sweet of you to drop by with a such a wonderful comment. Happy New year to you 🙂
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